i’m not looking for money, i’m not looking for things. from what i know it doesn’t really do you any good to look for anything anyway. i’ve been wanting to just get up and go. and i get driven to the decision every day but i just can’t do it. it’s because i’m not completely free. two things i want out of life are complete freedom and truth. i’ve been starting to really hate the idea of a house. there’s too much to see to spend so much of it in a little box. i wanna sleep under the stars. whenever i needed to get away i’d take night walks to the beach by myself and just lay and look at the stars. and listen to nineties music because it reminded me of growing up and for some reason just remembering growing up was enough to remind me whatever it was that i temporarily lost. i guess my mind.
so in high school we had a tetris tournament that went on for about three months at my friends house, and my vision started going bad right after that. sometimes i think it happened because i need to get closer to things. because i really like distance. and i’m happy with standing away and observing, out of the way. and now that i can’t see far i have to get closer. so instead of getting glasses i guess i’ll just get closer to things.